Grade-A Medium Egg

Well my first post is a poem I wrote for a poetry class in July 2004. We had to think about 5 items, and then let the image form themselves. The tone is exemplary of the way I'm feeling right now.


Grade-A Medium Egg

I watched it
clink and clank.

I saw the babe that was
supposed to become a chicken.
I saw it look up and part its mouth.
I wanted to hear
a chirp, I wanted to see
it peck or flutter, but all I could muster
was a blink. It blinked.

I turned the stove off and removed the pot,
took it out and sat it on the counter,
nestled in between folds of tissue, cradled
in a paper nest. The steam rose and fell,
billowed and gave up.
I lifted it and eclipsed the sun shining
through the window.

Then I let it fall,
hard. It bounced up and
down, as if not believing
itself and when it
finished rolling and
shaking, I snatched it up and saw a rose pressed into its side,
leaves and vines and branches wrapped ‘round and ‘round.

I picked at that rose and it fell away,
scared and scarred.
I picked at it and it ran, withered, breaking
flake by stunned flake,
until I felt the tender flesh of my youth,
innocence like the white light pain of
a car door and fingers
going crunch as they meet.

I wanted to eat its curves and shine and
perfect smooth whiteness. I wanted it back
as much as yesterday when I told a smooth white lie.

i'm not complaining...just blogging...

I've been following blogs for a while now, but I decided to start my own because I've been reading Shawn's blog and saw how he filled his with smiles and frowns...I miss being able to transfer my aura to another medium, to look at my emotions from outside myself. Right now, I need to be able to do that.

Law school is hard. I'm caught off guard because I thought the material would be hard to grasp, but it's not. Far from it. But my studies have so consumed any available time I have that my friendships are suffering and I'm slowly breaking down. If you know me, then you know that I get a lot of strength from my friends and loved ones. I need to re-energize. And I swear, if I hear from one more person some encouraging bs like "you can do it" or "we're routing for u" I'm going to have a fit!